Lord, what if I wake up 
one day and life is so perfect?
Then, I wouldn’t have tasted
the sweetness of life-giving
as a service to You…

What if there were no sickness
or problems to bring me
suffering or sorrow?
Then, I wouldn’t have learned to be grateful
to the blessings ever showered
nor remember to call on You…

What if I was never been hurt and wounded
by the people I loved and trusted?
Then, I wouldn’t have heard
Your mellow whispers of comfort and be encouraged…

What if as I go through life’s journey,
I never stumbled and fell?
Then, I wouldn’t have felt Your strong gentle hands,
lifting me up and holding me so reassuringly…

What if there was never any darkness or sadness?
Then, I wouldn’t be able to appreciate
the mystery and comprehend beyond light…

What if I was never been weak
in every aspect of my life?
Then, I wouldn’t have touched
the exquisite joy of finding and knowing You…

What if I never learned to love You?
Then, I might as well never been born…

Lord, I asked too many questions
when the answers are right here in my heart…

“What if” it can never be
because You Love Me?!

1 John 4:19, "We love because He first loved us."


*Composed this over ten years ago...

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